I've decided that chemo is a roller coaster and trying to predict and understand it, just isn't going to work.
At one point I was told:
- One strong dose every three weeks three times. This was the one that turned my pee pretty pink then
- Three weekly doses of Taxol with a week off in between three times a total of 9 doses for the Taxol and 12 chemos together
However, after the first three doses of the Taxol I was looking forward to my week off.
Not so fast.
Seems the team thinks that it would be better to do 12 straight so instead of being half way thru I have eight more weeks.
I don't understand that the day after chemo I feel wonderful, normal, have energy.
The next day less so and until the next chemo I can feel everything from almost energetic to I've-got-to-lie-down NOW. I call it hitting a wall. It happened last night at Thanksgiving dinner, happily after I'd eaten everything I wanted.
Smack. We left the restaurant and went home
Today I do a bit of this and stop, a bit of that and stop.
I never wanted to ride a roller coaster. Now I have no choice.
Oh well, eight more treatments.
I can do this, but I am still never getting on a real roller coaster.